This is my self portrait.
Although no, I don’t actually own a giraffe and live in a garden full of flowers. And I’m not really heavy but just a slight hundred pounder without pigtails that stand out above my head. And I don’t have blue eyes and I don’t wear jackets with enormous flowers and fish on them. But this is me just the same.
Having a blog like this, where you share a lot of intimate details about your body, can be a bit awkward at times. I haven’t really wanted to share much about myself personally because I’ve wanted to maintain a fair amount of privacy.
I’ve been on the Low Histamine Chef site a million times and have marveled at how open she is to sharing even those intimate details that I’ve only shared in emails with some readers. And I love seeing her and how healthy she looks. It does a lot to promote her work.
I am still not ready to post pictures of myself. But I know there are details I really should share to give you an idea of who I am and what I do to round out the picture. After all, it could be important to know if I keep in shape and if I’m active. Or how big I am and what my lifestyle is. So today I decided to share a little more about myself and still retain an amount or anonymity.
So where to start? Well, I’m 5’3″ and about a hundred pounds wet. I’m always surprised when I see myself in pictures as to how tiny I look. I think of myself as pretty big. But I guess what I lack in physical size I’ve made up for in personality. Not that I’m one of those people who sucks all the oxygen out of the room when they come in kind of personality, but you know I’m there because I’m probably pretty assertive and most definitely opinionated.
I am a high school teacher, an artist, a writer, a pacifist, a sister, a daughter, and an aunt.
Additionally, I like to think of myself as an aging athlete, not professionally mind you, but one who has had some amount of athletics in her life most of the time. I ran distance in high school and played soccer in college. After I graduated, I would say I became a skinny fat person. I didn’t really work out or run anymore but maintained my weight, so I wasn’t really in great shape, but I was still thin. I was a meat eater until 1995 when I became vegetarian. About five years after that I decided to maintain a vegan lifestyle. I still eat some cheese outside of the house but my home is vegan. No animal products are allowed in other than the two cats that roam around.
So back to the skinny fat person…At the time I decided I should get back into shape, about when I was 35, (1997) I was working as a technical writer for a software firm. It had been about 15 years of on and off exercises like step aerobics (I was pitiful at it), rowing machines and stationary bikes, Tai Chi and gosh knows what else, when I decided to join the company’s co-ed indoor soccer league so out to the practice field I went, after not having run for many years.
It’s true what they say about bodies having muscle memory. I started to get back into shape pretty quickly. The only thing that stopped me from continuing with the league was a change in jobs. Oh and the fact that my team of software geeks got into a fist fight with the Remax Reality team on the field. Luckily I was on the sidelines at the time and didn’t get involved any more than having to hold back the wife of one of the players who was getting the tar beat out of him. Her leg was in a cast from a torn ligament from the week before, but I still had to stop her from hopping onto the field to scrap with the boys. But I digress…
Anyway, from there I arbitrarily decided to buy a bike, and have been riding at least once or twice a week ever since (almost every day when I’m off in the summer). Riding overlapped with the yoga I practiced for ten years at an Iyengar studio until a two year bout of frozen shoulder made yoga more painful than fun, so I took up running in its place. I’ve tried to get back to yoga, but I really love to run right now and am thinking of training for a half marathon. So my week consists of at least two or three days running three miles, and one or or two days riding ten, and the occasional kettle bell workout when the spirit moves me. I do some yoga at home, and am trying to get back into it regularly, but just haven’t gotten back to the studio.
So with all that said, now you hopefully get the picture that I am a very fit 52 year old. I look younger than my years thanks to good genes and the fact that I’ve never been married! (just a theory) My high school kids think I look like I’m in my thirties, but they think anyone over twenty-five is old so I don’t put much stock in what they think, although most normal people, high schoolers not counting since they’re hardly normal, think I’m about ten years younger than I am.
The point of this entire explanation is to illustrate that just because I’ve been through the horrors of histamine intolerance, I am still a fit, healthy gal. I was never unhealthy. Even at my worst points last year, I was social, active, and busy. I never missed a day of work and I never miss a good time.
To fill in some of the rest, I am estrogen dominant, am a migraine sufferer, and had awful, mercurial mood swings most of my life. I don’t do drugs but like a drink every now and again, and I’ve never smoked. I eat healthfully and try to stay positive even when I feel like I’m too tired to care about anything. And with menopause…there was a lot of that.
It’s my family history that might show real links to my intolerance. My mother has always had major allergy issues and hives. I’ll never forget the day she came home with her face swollen twice its size from a vacation to Sanibel because she had a reaction to the paba in sunscreen. My sister had a bout of roseacea years ago, and my grandmother (my Mom’s mother) suffered from depression. I bring this up because of the theoretically strong link between histamine intolerance and depression. So family history would tend to make me believe that histamine intolerance lurks in my family tree.
If you’ve read the Low Histamine Chef’s history, which I’m sure many of you have as she is so well known in histamine circles, you’ll read quite a different story. She was sick for years with all kinds of issues. She’d been to all kinds of doctors and spent years trying to figure out what was wrong with her.
But that’s not me. And maybe not you either. I can see the search terms people use to find me, and the majority type in: menopause itching and hives menopause. You’re not ill but you’re certainly confused. You can be as healthy as a horse, as you can see by what I’ve shared, but there is something that’s gone haywire.
So now you know. Menopause set off your histamine intolerance and you landed here. And if you are lucky like me, this too shall pass.
But in the meantime, you know a bit more about me and maybe that will help. You’re not sick, your hormones are just imbalanced. So don’t let it stop you from living life. Learn to control it and don’t let it control you.
See you at the track!